Stupid Nervous Boy

So, remember the other day where I was all convinced that things with the current girl might not happen? Well now I'm confused again. For all intents and purposes, tonight was a great night! A minor mishap, but other than that, pretty good. The minor mishap was something that I was SURE was a dealbreaker and I ruined everything, but after consulting with a few other people, they have assured me that I didn't screw anything up and that I did the only thing I really could have done considering the situation.

So, this really means a whole lot of nothing. I'm right back where I was before I had my "this isn't happening" mini-breakdown. But, I was told to focus on the positives from the evening rather than overanalyze the one botched scene from the night. Which is tough. My middle name is Analysis. And my other middle name is Over. So, it's not easy, but I'm going to try to focus on the fun, the laughing, the smiles. And there were a lot of those things!

So, I dunno. Do I think she and I are actually gonna become "significant"? I don't know. It'll take time. She has some major barriers that need to come down first. But, I've got nothin but time. So, we shall see. I'm definitely NOT convinced that it WON'T happen, though. Which is an improvement over my last blog.

In other news, I've suddenly become a Lil Wayne fan... Yes, that's right. I'm a neohippie who likes a rapper. Sue me. Or, don't. I ain't got no money.

New Shannon, who has started looking a lot like Old Shannon recently? Question mark?