It went mostly okay. I woke up and finished reading Angels and Demons. Loved it! I kinda wanna see the movie, even though I'm not a big "Tom Hanks as Robert Langdon" fan. Oh well. Anyway.. Finished the book. Hung out with the roomie for a bit. Then got ready for work.
Before I got in the shower, I read her blog. It caught me off guard. I guess I didn't expect her to feel that way. I couldn't help but cry. I let myself go for a few seconds, and then decided to go ahead and get in the shower.
Went to Wal-Mart to pick up my Nasonex refill. That took FOREVER! (Momentary Rant) I hate store clerks who strike up random ass conversations with the people they are helping when they can see they have a HUGE EFFING LINE of customers who need to be helped. (Rant over) Went to work, which was mostly okay. I had to close, and the two people I closed with are both kinda asses toward me, but I made the best of it.
When I was working tonight, it was hard to imagine that I was still working after the breakup. I mean, I don't know what I expected, but the fact that necessity forced me to continue living was kind of interesting to me. I didn't just spontaneously shrivel up and die. Which is nice.
Got home from work at like 2 am. Hung with the roomie for a while, and here I am. Tomorrow I'm off work (Hallelujah!) and it looks like me, the roomie, and a bud are going to play Marvel: Ultimate Alliance 2. Sounds fun. Oh! And The Colonly comes on tomorrow night. YES!
Fantasy Football Update: I lost my first game by 1 point... 1 point. If I'd played Nick Folk instead of John Carney, or Ahmad Bradshaw instead of Beanie Wells.. I'd have won. OR if I was home team. Oh well. At least my team isn't that bad. I made some trades tonight, and I'm pretty happy with them. Now, I play my roomie. The apartment might be a little tense until next Monday after the game. Ruh roh.
In regular NFL News: Holy shit! Have you seen the Saints?! Good gravy!
Oh. Music is weird. It totally brings me down one minute and then uplifts me the next. I heard a number of songs tonight that either brought me to tears or made me feel like I can make it.
Song 1: Gone Forever, by Three Days Grace.
Song 2: Not Meant to Be, by Theory of a Deadman
Song 3: Back at Your Door, by Maroon 5
Song 4: If You're Gone, by Matchbox Twenty
Song 5: Come Back to Me, by David Cook
Song 6: No Surprise, Daughtry
I feel a mixture of all of the emotions in all of these songs. I won't post the lyrics, cause that would be a lot of lyrics. But you can find them all. It's called Google.
Hopefully Day Two will be like today. I don't mind the fact that I lost it a couple times today. I think that's to be expected. But, I don't know.. I don't think the reality has actually hit me yet. I realize that we're going to try again when she moves here, but I dunno. Part of me is thinking "Oh, this is like a long break! No biggie!" But the other part of me is like "Um, I may be losing my soulmate right now.. Why am I not doing something about it?" I still miss the crap out of her and I wanted to call her about 37 times today, especially the two moments that I couldn't help but cry, but I dunno.. I think how well I do will be dependent on which side of my consciousness takes over. Anyway, tomorrow should be just as good if not better.
Um.. and now I'm going to bed. I have nothing exciting to read anymore (Sad face). So... I guess... I'll just.. sleep? WEIRD CONCEPT! Okay. Goodnight world.
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